Friday, February 26, 2010

peru






Peru keeps on dreaming through me.. I, and the others in my little group were initiated by the Q'uero elders and somehow this has taken us all and connected us molecularly to the moon, the sun, the incas, the stars, the wind, the water....
and so now the Apus, the mountain spirits, seem to be dreaming through me and although i am here in new york in the snow and rain and slush, i am also there, with Lorenzo and Martine and juliana and Lake titicaca and the sacred valley... there are secrets about living here on earth that they have kept close for a very long time and now it seems they are sharing these secrets with the world and once again life has expanded... there is so much more than I ever imagined, and you know, i imagine ALOT, and yet there is more, more than I can imagine and all I have to do it seems is stop my rational mind, open my heart, readjust my eyes and see....
over and over it came to me how simple it is really.. life loves us... all we have to do is breathe and love it back... really...
te amo!
xxx

Tuesday, January 12, 2010

YOU, FOR US ARE EVERYTHING



FAR AWAY SO CLOSE... WIM WENDERS.

what the angel says at the beginning of this extraordinary movie...

"YOU, who we love. you do not see us. you do not hear us. you imagine us in the far distance... that we are the messengers... who bring closeness ... who are distant... we are the messengers ...we bring the light into the darkness.... we are neither the light, nor the message... we are the messenger . we are nothing, nothing. You for us are everything...

Tuesday, December 1, 2009

dancing with the sun.





the sun shows it's face around here so rarely lately that when he arrives everything begins to dance!! so to celebrate and honor my friend sage's request the angel appeared and showed her face as well. so the dance began and lasted all the short day!!

Monday, November 16, 2009

it's a mystery.





we watched shakespeare in love the other night. hadn't seen it in so long that i'd forgotten one of my favorite lines, "it's a mystery..."
everything is. it just is. even the genius of tom stoppard and marc norman working with shakespeare and capturing every bit of glorious and bawdy and romantic feeling of the bard and showing what bards they are themselves. they capture it all. the huge giant messy mystery of life!

in the full version of the oxford english dictionary there are two whole pages of a BIG book dedicated to the word.
the definitions at the outset are divided into two categories. theological and non theological. to me they are saying virtually the same thing and the not theological is more appealing so that's where i'm going...

"a hidden or secret thing; a matter unexplained or inexplicable;something beyond human comprehension. a riddle. or enigma."

and with that goes the feeling. for me it's a feeling of tremendous expansion almost as if my consciousness can actually have a party because it has found a place that my small little brain cannot explain. can't reduce to the flat, hard place of logic.

lots of things can trick me into remembering we are all from this giant mystery. and there are places on the planet that bring me right to this place. right into the mystery. two of them have been built by humans to explore this very idea. whole cities dedicated to exploring the mystery. or that's what we imagine. we don't really know because, well you know, it's a mystery...
we get to look at images or actually go to places on the earth like this and feel it. and then carry that home with us and for me everyday i try to remember that place. and more than that i try to feel it. let it take me, that crack in the sky that lets me get between here and there. where it seems the deepest creativity falls from. where real love abides. where we are from. who we are. that's what i feel.

above are two of these places. Teotihuacan in Mexico. the second largest pyramids in the world and Machu Pichu, in Peru. the last image is putacuse (yikes sorry about the spelling) the happy mountain. the mountain of joy. she is the mother and there is a little doorway in the side of her that if you let your brain slip will open for you and you can fly right out into the vast vast mystery. lovely....

Wednesday, November 4, 2009

The Way of the Heron.







a few weeks ago my beloved friend Emily came to herondale farm from her home in teotichuacan mexico to co facilitate with me a workshop focusing on creativity. (check out her amazing blog,www.livingwithpyramids.blogspot.com), this workshop led us deep into the mystery of transformation and creativity. it was big magic. and like all things magical, the energy began swirling days before emily even arrived. the workshop centered around the grace and peacefulness of the heron spirit. days after the workshop i found this passage in a book called, Native New Yorkers:

"the Lenape, as part of the Algonquin world, were inheritors of what Eunice Bauman Nelson, an elder of the Penobscot tribe has called 'The Way of the Heron.' in the lenape the translation would be Aaney Talika. It is the way of the peacemaker, and it is a great tradition through out the Algonquin world.... the Lenape were the Grandfathers, the elder statesmen of the realm."
Evan T. Pritchard
Native New Yorkers. the legacy of the algonquin people of new york.

so it seems the land once again spoke to us. leading us deep into our own hearts and deep into the heart of this place. and perhaps we have all been called to "the way of the peace maker."








Monday, September 21, 2009

THE ANGEL OAK




I grew up in the south, South Carolina for the most part, but we were wanderers across that state. back and forth from Columbia to Bennetsville we roamed. but for five blissful years we settled in Charleston and that place buried itself under my skin, left its imprint permanently. I loved that place so much it still pulls me. The smell of the marsh. The hot wet air. The pelicans loping across the sky. And a 1,500 year old tree called the Angel Oak out on John’s Island. A few years ago I guess I just needed to answer that pull and so I began writing out the memory. It turned into to fiction holding all the feelings of that place.
I wrote about two ghosts who were bound up with each other on earth and then stayed bound up when they turned to spirit and a tree called the Angel Oak.
Here is a little snippet from that story.


"I went down in the Valley one day, I heard the angel singing."
Inez held Hopes hand, singing as she wove with her through the tree’s arcing limbs, the two wraiths falling like sunlight through the leaves of the Angel Oak. Hope was frightened. She had never bargained on flying being part of her job description. She wondered how Inez had mastered this flying floating thing as if she’d always known that one day she would soar. Inez ignored her protestations and showed her where to alight, high in the tree, where the view was good.

I don’t like heights, Hope said.
The tallest tree in paradise, the Christians call the tree of life, Inez sang. And then she turned to Hope. Come on, sing with me, she said. Sunday’s dawning soon.
We used to come here all the time, Inez. I love this tree, is this why you brought me here?
Just sing.
I don’t know this song.
The spirits will come.
Spirits?
Inez giggled a wheezy sound through her nose.
Spirit’s other than the two we be.
And when she saw the confusion on Hopes face she added.
If you hadda looked closely if you ever came on Saturday night you would have seen Angels, floating brightly above the water, carrying spirits along on their wings, bringing them back to earth, back to the tree, to sing. Ain’t you never seen them?
No I don’t believe I ever saw that, Inez. Hope smiled a knowing smile. A smirk really.
You don’t believe me?
I didn’t say that.
Humph. Well just wait. You’ll see.
Shadows began flitting along the bent boughs. Shadows arriving and singing songs so sad the wind began to moan. And there were hundreds of them materializing from shadow to shape until finally the Angel Oak was entirely covered with spirits. Their voices rang across the sky, hard to hear, easily mistaken for the wind, or birds or some strange whirring insects that rattled just before dawn. They sang all the songs at once. Nobody knows the trouble I seen. Nobody knows my sorrow, Sometimes I feel like a motherless child, You got to walk that lonesome valley, Swing low sweet chariot, there is a balm in Gilead, Wade in the water,. Roll over Jordon. I’m going home all swelling from the python like branches of the ancient tree..
Who are these people? Hope whispered.
My ancestors.
Have they always come here?
Yes, for a long long time.
Why could I never see them before?
Were you looking?
I don’t guess I was.
You got to look to the past to remember your future, Inez said.
Hope began to quake.
I don’t wanna be left behind when the saints go marching in.
A small girl fluttered down and settled next to Hope. She clutched onto Hope’s arm and looked up at her, her brown eyes wide and sad.
Where’s my Mama at? she said.
I don’t know sugar. Hope turned to Inez, What is this child doing here by herself?
Where’s her mother?
Inez shrugged and began to clap her hands with the others as they sang.
The tallest tree in Paradise, the Christians call the tree of life.
Well don’t you worry, Hope said to the child, you stay with me until we find your mama.
She can’t do that, Inez said. You’re too late.
What do you mean?
Just then, a woman, alive on the earth, wandered under the tree and stood with her neck craned, peering up into the branches draped with spirits and Spanish moss.
Isn’t that the bird woman? Hope whispered.
Yes, Althea can see us. Not many can. She has the call. Inez waved.
Turkey buzzard on its way, someone shouted down to Althea.
Althea nodded her head. Too bad, she muttered and wandered away.
What’s that mean?
Inez just tsked her teeth and shook her head. Mm-mm-mm. She said. while the others sang that Paul and Silas bound in jail sing God’s praise both night and day. hallelujah...

-from I Heard The Angel Singing. Iva Peele


a few weeks ago i took my youngest son to Charleston. we drove out to see the Angel Oak. He was as mesmerized as i've spent a lifetime being. The ancient old tree still growing and holding up our memories for 1500 years has seen more than any than we can imagine. A thousand years before the Europeans came to this place and brought with them people they’d stolen from Africa, this tree was watching the original people go about their lives. Century after century it’s been aborbing it all. all the secrets and mysteries of this place held inside it's trunk and stretched out limbs...